Dear Vance~ 9/3/24

It sounds like there's a fuckin hurricane outside. I have so many questions for you, still. Some days I just live my life, and don't think about you, at all, but other days, like today, you're all I think about... Take good care of Jake Irving, k? I don't know what the whole story there is; if it was on purpose or an accident, but he's probably so lost. I'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt, and say it was an accident, but he must have been even more depressed than you were, and you would frequently come over, behind Savannah's back, to get a different kind of high by making out with me. You're the whole reason I don't drink. Yeah, my liver is already overwhelmed from all the medications I'm prescribed, but I remember the taste of whiskey on your lips. Which is a stab in the heart, if there ever was one. I've now come to realize that getting high and/or drunk was a prerequisite for you kissing me, and if that doesn't murder my self-esteem... 

Remember how I told you that you're a trendsetter? Well, be that as it may, slide over because if anyone deserves to preside over the LP Suicide Squad, it's Jake.

I still love you, Vance.

11/12/15

Vance~
It's no secret that I love you.

Always have.

Always will. 

But on New Years Eve, a few years ago

You made a really stupid and selfish call

Part of me is still hung up on it

Another part of me just wants to get over it and I'm sure everyone in my family wants me to, too

The good news is that I'm taking steps in that direction

You said you would marry me one day

Well I'd like to think you would be happy for me

His name is James Walter West

We've been dating for about a month and don't freak out but we're already talking marriage 

He told me on day 2 that he would marry me 

So I've known for a while

My mom says to wait until he proposes to tell anyone but you're the exception

You always seemed to think you were 

But on December 31, 2011, you quickly learned that you were wrong.

In twelve days, it's your birthday.

Idk how I'm supposed to treat it. 

💜me